The Struggle is Real
I have been struggling with training for this upcoming race. Really struggling. I am skipping runs, cross training days, and am not fueling myself the way I should. I have been using a new job and new situations as an excuse, but deep down I knew that was exactly what it was – an excuse.
Struggling with the Struggle
With my new commute, I have had a lot of time to think about it. And what I came up with was interesting. I am not excited about the Arizona Rock n Roll Half. I’m just not – and with that, my motivation has slipped. Ok, lets me honest, it has plummeted. I have also been struggling with handling the workouts for my secondary goal of running it sub- 2:30. Workouts weren’t going well, and I let the thought get stuck in my head that I just couldn’t do it. And if anything – running is a mind game.
And I’ll be honest, my mind hasn’t been in the game. And not just the running game, I’ve been pretty checked out in a lot of areas. My diet is crap, I haven’t been training or grooming the Boys the way I should be, and don’t get me started on checking on Lil’ WO’s school work or grades consistently. And with all that going on, on top of not training the way I should… I’ve really let shit get in my head and I have fallen back into old habits. (Can you say numbing?)
So now what?
It’s time to pick myself up and Fake It til I Make It. We’ve paid to run the race, so I will power on and just focus on getting out of my head and out on the road. If I can keep my mileage consistent from now til the race, I’m not worried about finishing. And every time I fall off my path, I’ll just dust myself off and make sure that I keep trying.
OH – and I’ll find a race that I am excited to run and run it soon. I admit watching a video of the Las Vegas Rock n Roll got me excited about that one. So I am hopefully adding it to the 2017 calendar. It fits nicely in with the WDW Marathon training for 2018.
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