The Struggle is Real

I have been struggling with training for this upcoming race. Really struggling. I am skipping runs, cross training days, and am not fueling myself the way I should. I have been using a new job and new situations as an excuse, but deep down I knew that was exactly what it was – an excuse.

Struggling with the Struggle

With my new commute, I have had a lot of time to think about it. And what I came up with was interesting. I am not excited about the Arizona Rock n Roll Half. I’m just not – and with that, my motivation has slipped. Ok, lets me honest, it has plummeted. I have also been struggling with handling the workouts for my secondary goal of running it sub- 2:30. Workouts weren’t going well, and I let the thought get stuck in my head that I just couldn’t do it. And if anything – running is a mind game.

 

Old English Sheepdogs
The Boys, Bentley and Bodhi, are as neglected as my training plan!

And I’ll be honest, my mind hasn’t been in the game. And not just the running game, I’ve been pretty checked out in a lot of areas. My diet is crap, I haven’t been training or grooming the Boys the way I should be, and don’t get me started on checking on Lil’ WO’s school work or grades consistently. And with all that going on, on top of not training the way I should… I’ve really let shit get in my head and I have fallen back into old habits. (Can you say numbing?)

So now what?

It’s time to pick myself up and Fake It til I Make It. We’ve paid to run the race, so I will power on and just focus on getting out of my head and out on the road. If I can keep my mileage consistent from now til the race, I’m not worried about finishing. And every time I fall off my path, I’ll just dust myself off and make sure that I keep trying.

 

OH – and I’ll find a race that I am excited to run and run it soon. I admit watching a video of the Las Vegas Rock n Roll got me excited about that one. So I am hopefully adding it to the 2017 calendar. It fits nicely in with the WDW Marathon training for 2018.

 

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